Lindora Kick-Start Complete; I’m on My Own

Edamame. Photo by Tammy Green (aka Zesmerelda) from Chicago Upscale Dining + Lounge Republic Pan-Asian Restaurant

I completed my 4-week program at Lindora on Tuesday, August 30. My weigh-in that day showed I had lost 18 pounds so far. It’s a great kick start toward my 100 pound weight loss goal. The 4-week program helped to re-educate me and get my head in the game.

I’m on my own now, but am confident that between the accountability of having this blog and the support of my online community, friends, colleagues, and especially my husband, I can step out of this fat suit I’m wearing… forever.

I plan to make some adjustments to my program that aren’t “authorized” by Lindora. Here are some of the “rules” I’ve already broken, but am still losing weight:

  • Eating string cheese instead of nasty fat-free cheese. One ounce has 1 carb and 6 grams of fat. A very satisfying morning snack. And I’m still losing weight.
  • Adding 2 tablespoons of sugar-free, liquid Coffee-mate vanilla creamer to my coffee each morning (the fat-free version has more carbs, so I don’t use it). The Lindora program only authorizes 1 teaspoon of non-dairy, powdered, fat-free creamer. Nasty. That’s just not right. You just don’t mess with a good cup of coffee. I’m happy with my substitution. And I’m still losing weight.
  • Eating ZonePerfect bars instead of Lindora-only protein bars. Half the cost, but with the same nutritional benefits and taste. And I’m still losing weight.
  • Eating Edamame as a protein/vegetable portion. Edamame is too nutritionally balanced to be ignored. It’s a perfect combo of protein, carbs and fiber. I’m just going to be careful to limit my portions. I have only had it twice this week, so we’ll see how it impacts my diet, positive or negative.
  • Having a “free” meal once a week.

Here are rules I don’t intend to break, but know I will if I’m not careful:

  • Continue to measure my food; don’t eyeball it and call it good. The little devil on my shoulder will let me lie to myself and deem something a half of a cup when it is really three-quarters of a cup.
  • Continue to have 1 protein-only day per week.
  • Stay out of the rut of eating the same foods every day. To be creative in food preparation.

Lindora encourages moderate exercise. Ten years ago I lost 60 pounds on Lindora by following the program and walking every day, so I know walking is enough to do the trick. This time around, my husband and I are doing much more than walking. We’re building muscle. Muscle burns more calories, even at rest. And I want that muscle to tone all my soon-to-be-formerly-floppy areas. And it’s fun. It feels good to feel stronger and firmer.

Here’s my menu from the past week. (I’m trying a new format to make it more readable. Pretty easy – I typed it up in Microsoft Excel and copy/pasted into the post.)

Saturday, August 27, 2011
Pedometer: 14,222
Exercise: Nothing formal, but lots of activity… Clean house, mow grass, etc.
Time Serving Size Food Carbs
8am 3/4 c Cheerios 12
1 c Skim milk 12
1 mug Coffee 0
2 Tbsp Sugar free Coffee-mate vanilla creamer 2
1 tsp Sugar free Metamucil 0
2 Adult chewable vitamins 3
12pm 2.5 oz Chicken breast 0
2 tsp Olive oil 0
1/4 c Carrots 4
1 c Strawberries 11
2:30pm 1 ZonePerfect nutrition bar* 13
4pm 1 oz String cheese 1
6pm 2.5 oz El Pollo Loco chicken 0
2 c El Pollo Loco salad 3
1/2 c El Pollo Loco Pico di Gallo 5
9:30pm 1 cup Lindora Creamy Hot Cocoa 6
Total Carbs 72
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Pedometer: Forgot to wear
Exercise: None. Our day off.
Time Serving Size Food Carbs
8am 3/4 c Cheerios 12
1 c Skim milk 12
1 mug Coffee 0
2 Tbsp Sugar free Coffee-mate vanilla creamer 2
1 tsp Sugar free Metamucil 0
2 Adult chewable vitamins 3
11am 1 ZonePerfect bar 13
Starbucks Coffee 0
Creamer 3
3pm 1/2 c Athenos Greek plain, fat-free yogurt 5
1 c Strawberries 11
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1/2 c Cucumbers 1.5
1/2 c Chinese pea pods 5.5
12 oz Diet Rootbeer 0
6pm 1/2 c Cottage cheese, fat free 4
2 Tbsp Salsa 4
Half Small grapefruit 10
8pm 1 oz String cheese at a movie 1
1 ZonePerfect bar at a movie. Hungry. 13
Total Carbs 103
Monday, August 29, 2011
Pedometer: Forgot to wear
Exercise: 30 min treadmill, 8 min rowing machine, 30 min upper body strength training
Time Serving Size Food Carbs
8am Lindora French Toast
1 slice Whole wheat bread 11
1 Egg 1
1 Tbsp Skim milk 1
Dash Nutmeg, cinnamon 0
Approx 10 squirts I can’t believe it’s not butter spray 0
1 mug Coffee 0
2 Tbsp Sugar free Coffee-mate vanilla creamer 2
1 tsp Sugar free Metamucil 0
2 Adult chewable vitamins 3
11am 0.5 oz String cheese 0.5
1.25 oz Deli turkey breast 0.5
1:45pm 2.5 oz Chicken breast 0
1/2 c Stewed tomatoes 5
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1 Orange 14
4pm 1 ZonePerfect bar 13
6:30pm 1/2 c Dannon Lite & Fit yogurt 10
2/3 c Raspberries 10
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1 c Cucumber 3
12 oz Diet Squirt 0
11pm 1 Lindora Strawberry Kiwi protein drink 1
Total Carbs 81
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
***LAST DAY of my 4-week Lindora program. On my own now!!!!***
Weigh-in: 207 lbs (-2 lbs); Blood pressure 120/80
Pedometer: forgot to wear
Exercise: 30 min treadmill; we did more, but I forgot to write it down!
8am 1 slice Whole wheat bread – Toast 11
1 Egg 1
4 squirts I can’t believe it’s not butter spray 0
1 mug Coffee 0
2 Tbsp Sugar free Coffee-mate vanilla creamer 2
1 tsp Sugar free Metamucil 0
2 Adult chewable vitamins 3
11am 0.5 oz String cheese 0.5
1.25 oz Deli turkey breast 0.5
1:30pm 1/2 c Dannon Lite & Fit yogurt 10
2/3 c Raspberries 10
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1/2 c Green beans 4
1/2 c Chinese pea pods 6.5
4pm 1 ZonePerfect bar 13
7pm 2.5 oz El Pollo Loco chicken 0
2 c El Pollo Loco salad 3
1/2 c El Pollo Loco Pico di Gallo 5
Lots Diet Coke 0
11pm 1 Lindora Wildberry Passion protein drink 3
Total Carbs 75.5
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Pedometer: 16,908
Exercise: 35 min treadmill, 30 min lower body strength training
Time Serving Size Food Carbs
8am 1 slice Whole wheat bread – Toast 11
1 Egg 1
4 squirts I can’t believe it’s not butter spray 0
1 mug Coffee 0
2 Tbsp Sugar free Coffee-mate vanilla creamer 2
1 tsp Sugar free Metamucil 0
2 Adult chewable vitamins 3
10:30am 0.5 oz String cheese 0.5
1.25 oz Deli turkey breast 0.5
1 mug Coffee 0
1 Tbsp Creamer 3
1:30pm 1 c Edamame soy beans (measured in pods) 10.5
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1 Orange 14
12 oz Diet Squirt 0
4:30pm 1 ZonePerfect bar 13
7pm 2.5 oz Shrimp 1
1 tsp Olive oil 0
1 clove Garlic 0
1 wedge Lemon 1
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1/2 c Cucumber 1.5
1/4 c. Chinese pea pods 5.5
Half Grapefruit 10
1/4 c Raspberries 3
12 oz Diet Pepsi 0
11pm 1 Lindora Orange Protein Drink 3
Total Carbs 89.5
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Pedometer: 13,343
Exercise: 25 min treadmill, 3 min elliptical, 20 min pool – water aerobics
Time Serving Size Food Carbs
8am 1 slice Whole wheat bread – Toast 11
1 Egg 1
4 squirts I can’t believe it’s not butter spray 0
1 mug Coffee 0
2 Tbsp Sugar free Coffee-mate vanilla creamer 2
1 tsp Sugar free Metamucil 0
2 Adult chewable vitamins 3
10am 0.5 oz String cheese 0.5
1.25 oz Deli turkey breast 0.5
1 mug Coffee 0
1 Tbsp Creamer 3
1pm 1/2 c Dannon Lite & Fit yogurt 10
1/2 c Nectarine 8
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1/2 c Cucumber 1.5
1/4 c Chinese pea pods 5.5
12 oz Diet Squirt 0
3:30pm 1 ZonePerfect bar 13
7pm 1 c Edamame soy beans (measured in pods) 10.5
2 c Romaine lettuce 3
1/2 c Cucumber 1.5
1 Orange 14
12 oz Diet Squirt 0
1/2 c Sugar free Jello 0
11pm 1 Lindora Mocha protein drink 1
Total Carbs 92
Friday, September 2 – Protein Day until dinner
Pedometer: 7,642
Exercise: None. Gym closes earlier on Fridays, so we’ll for sure go tomorrow
8am 1 c Skim milk 12
1 mug Coffee 0
2 Tbsp Sugar free Coffee-mate vanilla creamer 2
1 tsp Sugar free Metamucil 0
2 Adult chewable vitamins 3
10am 1 Lindora chocolate shake 1
11:45pm 1 ZonePerfect bar 13
1:30pm 0.5 oz String cheese 0.5
1.25 oz Deli turkey breast 0.5
3:45pm 1 Lindora chocolate protein bar 13
6pm 0.5 oz String cheese 0.5
1.25 oz Deli turkey breast 0.5
7pm 2.5 oz El Pollo Loco chicken 0
2 c El Pollo Loco salad 3
1/2 c El Pollo Loco Pico di Gallo 5
Lots Diet Coke 0
9pm 1 ZonePerfect bar (3rd bar today! At movies and hungry) 13
Total Carbs 67

Day 8: “You should really do something about your weight.”

My husband and I haven’t seen family much this year.  Not sure why – everyone is just going in a million different directions.  So when his brother needed to borrow a tool, my husband asked if I’d like to go along with him to deliver it.  I said, sure! I haven’t seen him in a long time! Let’s just call my husband’s brother Joe.

We arrived at his new home (he has just moved to a nice big home this summer with his wife and kids) while Joe and another of my husband’s brothers was there.  Both brothers has lost a ton of weight since I’d seen them last.  They looked great.  They were in the middle of painting the bathroom.

So Joe took a break and sat with us outside. He offered us some fruit salad, which I turned down.  When he persisted, saying “It’s good for you!” I had to say, “I’m on my protein day of the Lindora program I’m on, so I can’t have that right now.” (Again, it’s impossible to do this secretly.) After sitting for a bit and chitchatting, Joe looked at me and asked, “So just how much weight have you gained since your wedding?” (We just got married last December.)  I looked at him in surprise.  “How much do you think I’ve gained?” I asked.  He said, “Looks like 20 lbs.”  I was shocked – I’ve gained about 10. So we talked about exercise and how he’s lost about 25 lbs this summer and he talked lots of “you shoulds” to both my husband and me.

As we were leaving, he and I were alone for a moment and he says to me, “Jen, you should really do something about your weight. Just stand in front of the mirror, get naked and really look at yourself. Get motivated. We’re all getting older and we need to take better care of ourselves. And get my brother to work on it, too.”

Words spoken in love. Truly I believe that.  But I was so bummed afterward just the same.  It made me think, “What’s the point? I must really look disgusting and I didn’t realize how bad I’d gotten. How can my husband stand me?”  It made me want to eat! It was so weird.  Basically, his words didn’t help. Not one bit. I know I need to lose weight.  Having someone tell me who hasn’t seen me for a while is discouraging and depressing.

It made me want to quit.  And I thought of this blog.  And the one friend I’ve told about it. And how silly it would be to quit after just one week and the comments of one brother-in-law.  I told my husband how his brothers words bothered me. My husband said, “You know he loves you and he’s just trying to help.” Something like that.

So, I had a successful protein day anyway.  And we had El Pollo Loco again for dinner and I had a chicken breast with the skin removed.  It was like ambrosia, it was so good. We bought an extra chicken because they have the $4 for the 2nd chicken deal so I can eat on it for a couple of days.

While we were eating our chicken, I was telling  my husband about when I had met with Georgene at the Lindora clinic, she had asked me if I eat out a lot.  I had told her we eat out almost every day.  She asked what I chose to eat?  I told her, anything I want to. In other words, I didn’t make healthy choices.   So my husband wisely says,”So now you’re still eating whatever you want. You’re just wanting different things with a different result at the end.”  Yeah! He’s so smart.  Just love it when he makes sense, which is most of the time. : )

Exercise for today:  55 minutes on the treadmill, 5 minutes on the elliptical.

Food for today:

  • 9:30am 1 c skim milk (12), 2 chewable vitamins (3)
  • 12:00pm Zone Perfect bar, blueberry (13)
  • 2:30pm 2.5 oz roasted chicken (o) with mustard (0)
  • 4:30pm Lindora Chocolate Chocolate bar (13)
  • 8:00pm El Pollo Loco chicken breast with skin removed (0)
  • TOTAL:  41

Days 5-6: Getting Harder

A 14-hour day yesterday full of urgent deadlines and can’t-put-off-until-tomorrow projects made it hard to remember to eat my snacks/meals until I was famished. Then I’d eat my salad and cold chicken and apple, wishing I had a nice big meal including large amounts of warm bread – my comfort food.  If I remember to eat before I get crazy hungry, then I’m much more satisfied with my food. The folks at Lindora know what they are doing.  There is a method to the madness. Got home at 9pm cranky and snappish because I hadn’t expected to be at work that long and I hadn’t taken my dinner food. I’d eaten a Zone bar instead.

Add to that I tweaked the heck out of my back on the treadmill yesterday morning – right smack dab in the middle. Being busy with underlying pain that you’re not sure is going to worse on top of a seemingly insurmountable work load – if someone talked carelessly to me I would’ve cried. And it was depressing to realize how easily it is to get hurt, being as heavy as I am.

But, as my wonderful husband said this morning, as I lay on the sofa at 5:15am, not wanting to go to the gym because my eyes burned from being tired and my back hurt, “You’ve just got to push through it.”  I was about to cry with self-pity; a few tears fell. Then he said, “Just go back to bed.  You don’t have to go all out at the beginning.” I headed to our bedroom and decided to put on my tennies and just go.  Something weird about being told I can quit.  It somehow inspires me not to.

The 30-minute treadmill workout this morning felt GREAT.  I thanked God and my husband that I just went to the gym despite the way I felt. It lifted my spirits and made me feel powerful.

Food from yesterday, October 21:

  • 7:30am 3/4 c. cheerios (12), 1 c skim milk (12), coffee
  • 10:30am Lindora Chocolate Chocolate Bar (13)
  • 12:15pm 2.5 oz. Sirloin (0), 2 c lettuce (3), 1/2 c celery (3), 1/2 c cucumber (1.5), 1 T. Kraft Free Zesty Italian dressing (3), Apple (17), Diet Pepsi, 2 chewable vitamins (3)
  • 3:30pm Lindora BBQ Soy Puffs (8)
  • 6:30pm Zone bar (13)
  • 9:30pm Lindora Wildberry Passion protein drink (3)
  • TOTAL:  91

Today’s food:

  • 7:30am 3/4 c. cheerios (12), 1 c skim milk (12), coffee, 2 chewable vitamins (3)
  • 10:30am Lindora Chocolate Chocolate Bar (13)
  • 2:00pm  2.5 oz roasted chicken (o) with mustard (0), 2 c lettuce (3), 1/2 c celery (3), 1/4 c carrots (4), 1 T. Kraft Free Zesty Italian dressing (3), apple (17), Diet Pepsi
  • 6:00pm Lindora Chocolate Chocolate Pudding (7)
  • 8:00pm  El Pollo Loco meal approved by Lindora:  Chicken (0), salad (3) with fat free dressing
  • TOTAL: 80