My husband and I haven’t seen family much this year. Not sure why – everyone is just going in a million different directions. So when his brother needed to borrow a tool, my husband asked if I’d like to go along with him to deliver it. I said, sure! I haven’t seen him in a long time! Let’s just call my husband’s brother Joe.
We arrived at his new home (he has just moved to a nice big home this summer with his wife and kids) while Joe and another of my husband’s brothers was there. Both brothers has lost a ton of weight since I’d seen them last. They looked great. They were in the middle of painting the bathroom.
So Joe took a break and sat with us outside. He offered us some fruit salad, which I turned down. When he persisted, saying “It’s good for you!” I had to say, “I’m on my protein day of the Lindora program I’m on, so I can’t have that right now.” (Again, it’s impossible to do this secretly.) After sitting for a bit and chitchatting, Joe looked at me and asked, “So just how much weight have you gained since your wedding?” (We just got married last December.) I looked at him in surprise. “How much do you think I’ve gained?” I asked. He said, “Looks like 20 lbs.” I was shocked – I’ve gained about 10. So we talked about exercise and how he’s lost about 25 lbs this summer and he talked lots of “you shoulds” to both my husband and me.
As we were leaving, he and I were alone for a moment and he says to me, “Jen, you should really do something about your weight. Just stand in front of the mirror, get naked and really look at yourself. Get motivated. We’re all getting older and we need to take better care of ourselves. And get my brother to work on it, too.”
Words spoken in love. Truly I believe that. But I was so bummed afterward just the same. It made me think, “What’s the point? I must really look disgusting and I didn’t realize how bad I’d gotten. How can my husband stand me?” It made me want to eat! It was so weird. Basically, his words didn’t help. Not one bit. I know I need to lose weight. Having someone tell me who hasn’t seen me for a while is discouraging and depressing.
It made me want to quit. And I thought of this blog. And the one friend I’ve told about it. And how silly it would be to quit after just one week and the comments of one brother-in-law. I told my husband how his brothers words bothered me. My husband said, “You know he loves you and he’s just trying to help.” Something like that.
So, I had a successful protein day anyway. And we had El Pollo Loco again for dinner and I had a chicken breast with the skin removed. It was like ambrosia, it was so good. We bought an extra chicken because they have the $4 for the 2nd chicken deal so I can eat on it for a couple of days.
While we were eating our chicken, I was telling my husband about when I had met with Georgene at the Lindora clinic, she had asked me if I eat out a lot. I had told her we eat out almost every day. She asked what I chose to eat? I told her, anything I want to. In other words, I didn’t make healthy choices. So my husband wisely says,”So now you’re still eating whatever you want. You’re just wanting different things with a different result at the end.” Yeah! He’s so smart. Just love it when he makes sense, which is most of the time. : )
Exercise for today: 55 minutes on the treadmill, 5 minutes on the elliptical.
Food for today:
- 9:30am 1 c skim milk (12), 2 chewable vitamins (3)
- 12:00pm Zone Perfect bar, blueberry (13)
- 2:30pm 2.5 oz roasted chicken (o) with mustard (0)
- 4:30pm Lindora Chocolate Chocolate bar (13)
- 8:00pm El Pollo Loco chicken breast with skin removed (0)
- TOTAL: 41