Day 4: The On-Track Whineybutt

I’m committed to this weight loss thing. Truly I am. Sheesh – it’s only Day 4.

But every time I ate today, it only seemed to make me more hungry. My stomach growled immediately after eating, as if to say, “That’s all you got?”

And my second morning walk this week—my second walk in a year!—was hard. Weird! I’ve never had trouble just plain walking. But my lower back ached and my legs and feet felt like lead. I have to remind myself, “Hello, you’re out of shape! It’ll feel better tomorrow.”

Wearing my Skechers Shape-ups may have been a factor. They are extremely comfortable; I’ve worn them while grocery shopping or going to an amusement park. This is the first time I’ve used them for what they were intended, and I could really feel it in my legs.

Walking the neighborhood will get old, so I’m planning to find places where I can get out into the woods for a little hike. I want this to be fun! Hmm. I think I’ll start another section on this blog to highlight great places to go walking in the Inland Empire (southern California). More to come.

Here is today’s food:

  • 8am  Coffee (0) with 2 Tbsp sugar free Coffee-mate Vanilla creamer (2), 3/4 c Cheerios (12), 1 c milk (12), 1 tsp Sugar Free Metamucil (5)
  • 10:45am  Coffee (0), 2 MulitVites Gummy Vitamins for Adults (3), 2.5 oz Turkey cold cuts (1) with Dijon mustard (0) and a small celery stick (1) – yuck. I hated it.
  • 1pm  2.5 oz shrimp (0), 2 c Romaine lettuce (3), 1/2 c celery (3), 1/2 c mandarin oranges (14), Diet Pepsi
  • 3pm Atkins Caramel Nut Chew Bar (17)
  • 4:30pm Deviled Eggs a la Lindora (1), 1/2 c. sugar free cherry Jello (0)
  • 7pm 2.5 oz Top Sirloin (0), 2 c Romaine lettuce (3), 1/4 c celery (2), 1/4 c carrots (4), peach (10)
  • 9pm Lindora Hot Cocoa (6)
  • Total carbs: 99

Days 1-3: Getting into the Lindora Zone

This past weekend, to get into the Lindora zone, I pored through Lindora’s recipes on their website, my old Lindora Recipe Collection book I received in 2002, and the approved food choices in the Lean for Life book. I made a grocery list and got everything I needed at Costco and Stater Bros.

As I tackle my weight loss goals, I want to achieve variety in my food choices. Variety is the spice of life, so they say. In the past, my marathon weight loss attempts have failed in part because I would get lazy. I’d pick the same foods over and over again and get completely sick of them.

Following are my first three days of food choices. The goal with Lindora is to stay under 100 carbs a day. I didn’t add up my carbs until the middle of Day 3. Wow – I had no idea I was going so far over 100 carbs each day.

Day 1: Monday, July 25, 2011
Exercise: None 

  • 8am  Coffee (0) with Coffee-mate Vanilla creamer (5), 3/4 c Cheerios (12), 1 c milk (12), 2 MulitVites Gummy Vitamins for Adults (3), 1 tsp Sugar Free Metamucil (5)
  • 10:30am Atkins Caramel Nut Chew Bar (17) (Extremely yummy, but not an approved Lindora product. I have a box of these that I want to use up before “officially” starting on the Lindora program on August 4.)
  • 1pm  3.5 oz shrimp (0), 2 c Romaine lettuce (3), 1/2 c carrots (8), 1 Tbsp fat free Italian dressing (3), 1 apple (17)
  • 3:30pm Zone Perfect protein bar (14)
  • 4:30pm  2 egg whites (1)
  • 7pm  2.5 oz. chicken (0), 1 tsp olive oil (0), 2 c Romaine lettuce (3), carrots, celery, cucumber (a tiny bit of each; approx 6 carbs), peach (10)
  • Total carbs: 119
    (Yikes. I thought I was doing really well my first day! I didn’t add the carbs up as I went; otherwise, I could have made adjustments toward the end of the day. I definitely should not have 2 protein bars in one day.  Lesson learned!)

Day 2: Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Exercise: 30 minute walk with my Beagle 

  • 9:30am Coffee (0) with 2 Coffee-mate Vanilla creamers (6), 3/4 c Cheerios (12), 1 c milk (12)
  • Apple Celery Salad1pm  Apple Celery Salad – Very yummy. Includes 1 apple (17), 1/2 c Dannon nonfat vanilla yogurt (9), 1/2 c celery (3) and a dash of cinnamon (0); 2 c Romaine lettuce (3), 1/4 c cucumber (1), Crystal Light sugar free orange drink (0)
  • 2:45pm Atkins Caramel Nut Chew Bar (17)
  • Deviled Eggs a la Lindora4:30pm Deviled Eggs a la Lindora (1), Coffee (0) with 2 Coffee-mate Vanilla creamers (6), 2 MulitVites Gummy Vitamins for Adults (3)
  • 7pm  3 oz Top Sirloin Steak (0), 1/4 c cottage cheese (2), 1/2 c mandarin oranges (14),  2 c Romaine lettuce (3), 1/4 c carrots (4)
  • 10pm Lindora Chocolate Pudding (7)
  • Total carbs: 120
    I went way over 100 again. I’m figuring this is a good way to ease in to this new food thing! Prep days before my 3 protein days next week!

Day 3: Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Exercise: None 

  • 8am  Coffee (0) with 1 Tbsp sugar free Coffee-mate Vanilla creamer (3), 3/4 c Cheerios (12), 1 c milk (12), 1 tsp Sugar Free Metamucil (5)
  • 10:30am  Lindora BBQ Soy Puffs (8), 2 MulitVites Gummy Vitamins for Adults (3)
  • 1pm  2 c Romaine lettuce (3), 1/4 c carrots (4), 1/4 c cucumber (1), 1/2 c. sugar free cherry Jello (0), 1/2 c Dannon nonfat vanilla yogurt (9), 1 c strawberries (11) – Very nice. I mixed the yogurt and strawberries together
  • 3pm Atkins Caramel Nut Chew Bar (17)
  • 4:30pm Deviled Eggs a la Lindora (1)
  • 6:30pm Crab Salad: 2.5 oz imitation crab (1), 2 c Romaine lettuce (3), 1/2 c. celery (3), 1 tsp balsamic vinegar (1), orange (14)
  • 9pm Lindora Hot Cocoa (6) – so satisfying, especially as hunger pangs are making their presence known this time of night…
  • Total carbs: 117

Getting Started on Lindora’s Four-Week Program

My husband helped get me started back on Lindora—a medical weight control clinic—by purchasing a 4-week program for $179 from It includes:

  • Lab work ($151 value)
  • Physical exam ($75 value)
  • Lean for Life Workbook ($19 value)
  • Check in 2 times a week with a nurse ($260 value)

Yesterday, I called my local Lindora clinic to let them know I’d received the four-week program as a gift. Georgene, who has consistently followed up with me via phone since my false start in 2009, enthusiastically welcomed me and asked when I wanted to get started.

“Immediately,” I said.

She asked me to come first thing in the morning to get my blood drawn. She reminded me to fast for ten hours prior to that but to drink lots of water. “We want your veins nice and plump.”

I left the house early this morning to make it to my appointment at the clinic, which is  close to my workplace. A nurse practitioner welcomed me and asked me to complete two pages of forms—similar to forms you would fill out at your doctor’s office.

Next, I was taken to Georgene’s office where she went over what was included in my 4-week membership. She asked me to follow her to a Body Composition Analysis machine. I stood on a platform and with both hands, grasped metallic handles while the machine did its work. Moments later, she printed out the report and talked it over with me. Here’s what it said:

  • Weight: 224.7
  • Total Body Fat: 45.6% (normal range is 19-26%), or 102.5 lbs.
  • Fat Free Mass: 54.4%, or 122.2 lbs
  • Total Body Water: 42% (normal range is 50% and greater)

None of it is a surprise. Not really. But to see that almost 103 lbs of my body is straight fat? It’s hard to grasp. It’s also quite motivating.

We made appointments for my physical exam (over a week away—after the lab reports come in), my protein day informational session, and my carbohydrate informational session. She scheduled my three prep days, where I am to basically eat foods that include moderate protein, high fat and low carbohydrates.

She then scheduled my three protein days. These are days I dread as I’ll basically be going cold turkey from all sugar and bread—two of my most favorite things in the world. I am only supposed to eat approved meat or dairy products, or Lindora’s delicious protein supplements (a great perk to the program!). I was excited when she told me I could eat low fat string cheese as a protein. It would only count as 1 carb.

I didn’t tell her that I already started the weight loss menu yesterday. I don’t want to wait another week. I know what to do as I’ve done this before. I think it will make those three protein days a bit easier this time. It won’t be such a shock to my system.

She asked if I wanted to purchase any protein supplements. Yes. She handed me a list of product—almost 100 options. Over $50 later, I took home:

  • Lindora Hot Cocoa (perfect low carb snack before bedtime)
  • Double Chocolate Protein Bars (deadly good!)
  • Oatmeal Cinnamon Raisin Bar (perfect with a black cup of coffee)
  • Strawberry Kiwi Protein Drink (Georgene recommended having this on hand for high carb days)

The nurse practitioner was now ready to take my blood. She was chatty which helped to distract me from the needle. Her comments stuck with me.

“The Lindora program is great. As a nurse, it’s so gratifying to see people’s blood work go from bad to good. After just twelve weeks, it comes back clean and healthy. Some people even get to go off their high blood pressure meds. It’s so exciting.”

I’m already feeling lighter—buoyant even—just knowing that I’m taking steps toward better health in all areas: spiritually, emotionally, physically, mentally.

How about you? Have you ever started a program with Lindora? What was your first experience like at the clinic?

Back in the Saddle Again

My name is Jennifer. I am 41 years old. I weigh 225 lbs and am only 5’1″. Ridiculous!

“I have eyes. I can see, you know. And I can see that you’re not taking care of yourself.” These were the simple, gently delivered words spoken by my loving husband that finally threw me over the edge, propelling me into action two years ago. Thus the name of my blog. My serious commitment to my diet lasted about three weeks. I can blame it on a few comments from a brother-in-law (see October 24, 2009 post), but that pretty much became an excuse to be a victim and quit.

Fast forward two years, a couple of years older, a few pounds heavier, and I’m ready to start again. There wasn’t any particular trigger. A few fat pictures I couldn’t quite accept (“That cannot be me!”). The increasingly uncomfortable feeling that my skin was too small for my body. The realization that I’m not ready to give up on life. I’m not ready to be an old lady.

Why? Because I am convinced that there is always hope. Always reason to try again. Not trying again means I’ve decided by default to be a helpless old lady who can’t hike, bike, kayak, swim, go four-wheeling, or participate in many other physical activities that I used to enjoy.

One year from now, I intend to be able to do all those things and more!

I am excited to be joining the online weight loss community. Excited to be inspired by others, and hoping to be an inspiration myself. Back in the saddle again! : )